Monday, December 12, 2005
~Invisible~Initially was going for a long post.. well.. i dun think that i wanna blog abt wad i wanted initially planned already... however... onli certain things ba.... so sit back and RELAX ... ohh... New song ... THE INVISIBLE MAN ... listen to it mani times and clearly.......
Had a tiff wif
My Mrs RainBow during LEC after she woke me up wif a pen struck to my head... yupz we sat bery front of the LEC and theres no doubt abt how mani pairs of eyes did see them... well... i got angry and pissed off... i shouted @
My Mrs RainBow... she got angry and turned away... so did i.....CAN't believe that i'm foolish enuff to be so sensitive to got mad becoz of that.. kind of regretted being mad that time.. it spoilt the day... my temper got worst when i think back... its been several experience of being the invisible man...
YES.. u did said u will choose to be wif a friend den wif yr BF... ONCE AGAIN..JEALOUS-FULL and SENSITIVE ME... yes i will be there for u always.. but i seem to get the theory... when u are wif yr circle of friends... i shall not mind to be the invisible man... The Invisible Man hu would ear-drop things u can't hardly wait to share wif yr friends... The Invisible Man hu would onli wishes that he would be treated the same way u look and smiles wif the ones on the other side of u.. it
USED to hurt when u turn to yr friends rather den me last time... regardless it's abt love matters , Lec questions , jokes , feelings or thoughts.... its just a norm i found in you... ain't gonna be deviance abt that.. i dun wan ani part of u to diffuse after wad i mention here... i can adapt... i did accept yr terms and conditions before we came together... i will abid to it. .. =))
realli jus wanna tell and say a
BIG SORRY to
My Mrs RainBow for thoses things todae... i made u tears again... haii... i'm truly madly deeply Sorry.....
WOOTSSSSSssss... i FAILED in my prac 8 again... initially all the luck i gathered was all jus craps and plastics... i see grins at many faces this point of time.... every one says i'm lousy... i admit i am... i sux in anithing i do.. i'm a failure... go on... LAUGH OUT LOUD .... ROLF .... wad GL wad HF ... burn them down.. simple words can bring so so far out....i said it b4 and expected the next to be better... however... i failed to recieve... yes... i'm freaking sensitive..... i admit... i'm freaking Superstitious!!!.... i will be going to wear RED HOT UNDERWEAR the next time... i'm not going to say when... i won't wan ani luck ani more... i will be independent.....
Come to think abt it... i'm one Failure hu cannot denied.... failure to be a good BF , failure in everything i simply do... i failed to make my GF smile , failed to bring happiness to my GF or my peers... i failed in my pracs over and over again... and wads next ?? My mid sem den my Diploma ?? haas.. won't be surprised.... i'm mentally prepared afther todae..... its too common for me to fail in wad ever i do... too too common.... i dunno why... this Mentality "THE FAILURE"... its like those endless POP-UPS.... i failed to bring out the best in me for u DARLING ... i wan to be the best there is the best there will ever be... i always think i'm a good BF... i compare myself wif other BFs.... i always think that i'm the Superior one who thinkgs that my darling will certainly be blessed... ArGggghhhh.... BULLSHIT .... the fact that is i'm a complete FAILURE.. no 1 realli knows wads going on inside this relationship... inside of u... yr numb feelings... onli u yrself will know... am i right darling?? some1 full of fun , joycious and happily chatting wif friends around u can simpliy turn DEVASTATION when u turn to the one always by yr side... putting a stop to the normal u... i spoilt yr day.. yr nights... the 1 that sends numb feelings down to yr toes... all numb... How Low and Lousy can me this failure BF be.... TOtally FAiled...
Therefore... sure that ppl can't be convinced that i am such a suay KIA and failure.. theres this one week to prove.... this week... will be going for prac again this week...so will i pasS??? ... HAAS... i'm a failure... u say leh??? come on.. *SMILE* or *LOL*..... will i piss
My Mrs RainBow off again by my irritating actions , moves , words and unecessary noises when i'm Too active?? hmmm.... guess it would be hard for me to be that hyperactive monkey already ba.. the most onli a brave Front ba... but that may accidentally hurt ppl too... haii... lastly is the mid sem coming liaoz.... will i failed all my subjects besides ACC ?? haas.. no nid to say la .. no comments... WHy?? not becoz my Backside YY .... its coz... i'm jus a failure.... *clap*clap*... Hmm... ok ... so see whether my Philosophy right anot la hor... den no 1 should be able to claim Mr Failure title from me ba...we'll see... we'll see... time will tell everything......EVERYTHING!
*-The Invisible Failure Man-*
Rainbow Era @11:59 PM
