Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Farking Sensitivewell..todae's been a spoilt day...everything spoilt... mood , day , time , wad ever it is.... everything screwed up.... as fer everthing else.. hope they will run smoothly tml ba... been screwing things up alittle each day and night....
been having things on my mind that didn't say out... dunno how to reach in and say out too.. slowly day by day i revealed some... however... they are the most ridiculous things that can ever to be imagined... and yet i have thoughts on them ... sensitive me jus can't get my mind str8... well.. maybe thats ME ... i too afraid of losing things.... i ought to be extra and specially careful wif my belongings.... been wif me for so long.. the relationship jus keeps developing and gets deeper and deeper... so so afraid...
i dunno how to say out whether its on the phone or face-2-face.... everytime i had the chance to.... i hesitated to bring them out... i dun wanna screw things up again and again and again... thats y i did it above.... words are blurred .... speech are soft... onli actions speaks louder.... so let the actions do that talking...
jus like todae.. i one way or the other did speak how i thought and wad i thinking.. we almost ended up quarrelling... u weren't happy... jus putting up a brave front... i weren't happy... coz u weren't happy.... u can't lie.. u can't cheat... brave front are jus plastic... i see thru them...
i'm fine.. i'm ok .. jus nid to let the mind think straight... grow up more.. be mentally and emotionally stable abit..be less sensitive... think of more of the positive sides.... i'll be fine.... jus another challenge i nid to face it and overcome it... but i still dunno how and still dunno when... hope i can figure it out soon .. let the smoke clear and let the dust settle... maybe things will jus come and go naturally....
*-*Friends or Foes*-*
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Rainbow Era @11:59 PM
